Wednesday, December 29

I have the greatest friends ever.....

SO.....I have the greatest friends anyone could ever ask for.

Earlier this week I posted this status on FaceBook: "Seriously, what am I suppose to do without Tom for a year?"

I received some of the sweetest comments and wall post ever on this status. 

So basically I wanted to say THANK YOU!!

I know that even though I will rarely get to see/talk to Tom after January, I will still have all of ya'll to keep me company and make me smile and laugh with I am struggling. 

Hey it is like what Alex said,"You've made it through so much already, this is just another step in getting to spend forever with Tom!"

 I believe her and everyone else when they say, "We can make it through this." It is true Tom and I have already been through so much that what is one year more of long distance compared to one day getting to finally spend a life time together.

Monday, December 27

2011 is coming too fast

 2011 is coming way to fast.....

I know everyone loves the new year. It brings about the hope of new beginnings and the excitement of what is to come. I am not going to lie 2011 is going to bring about some major changing in my life. Some of these changes are exciting and some make me want to run back to the beginning of 2010 and savor every moment I didn't.

You might be asking, what does 2011 hold for me? Why am I afraid of it?

Well here is the truth 2011

1. I will be graduating from college. 
    This is an exciting event in my life. I am looking forward to joining the real world, however; I am scared because I am a biology major who will also have a psychology minor and I haven't a clue what to do with my life.

2. My twin brother is being deployed over seas in March.
Yes, it is true that I knew from the moment he joined the army, following in my daddy's footsteps, that he would have to fight in the war. He is 3 minutes older than me and he is suppose to watch me walk across that stage and receive that piece of paper that says, "Alanna, You did it. You conquered college." Yet, he won't by there, he will be over seas in Iraq fighting for my freedom and the freedom of my friends and family.

3. The love of my life will also be leaving for his military career. 
I met Tom my freshman year of college on a blind date. We have been together ever since. Ok, so we have been together as much as we could be. He went to Auburn so it was a long distance type of relationship. My sophomore year he graduated from Auburn and I was so proud to watch him walk across that stage knowing he had worked very hard to be there. My junior year he moved back to his hometown of Louisville, Ky and then later to Helena, Mt. He is now finally back in Alabama even though he is living 4 hours away from me it is nice to have him this close!
     But back to him. Tom joined the Army as an officer in July. He will be leaving on Jan 31 for a year of training and then he has 3 years of active duty, where he could be stationed pretty much anywhere.
    I am terrified of what is to come. He will not be able to watch me walk across that stage either. This makes me sad because he has listen to me cry, complain, and rejoice over test and assignments pretty much my whole college career and as much as I will deserve my diploma he deserves to see he walk across that stage and receive it because he held my hand the whole way through giving my the strength to achieve it.
   I am also scared because his training means I will get to talk to him every couple of weeks for a few minutes at a time and then I will get to see him once maybe twice in April and then maybe in July and after that I am not sure where he will be or even when I will get to see him.

2011 is going to be a scary year. This coming year might be the scariest one yet. I am hoping that even through all of the struggles I am going to have to go through I will leave 2011 stronger than when the year began.

Tuesday, August 31

Why I do not like WINTER......

So most people hate the winter, right? Yes they might like that it is cooler/ freezing cold. They might like the snow or the Christmas falls during the winter. But seriously who loves the WINTER.

Ok, so maybe I don't really hate the winter or dislike the winter but I was very disappointed by a family whose last name is Winter.

Maybe I was brought up extra well to know things difference between right and wrong but that this family has done is so completely wrong.

Here is the background to to story. We needed a 6th roommate for out mansion behind Tutwiler and we all had been looking hard to think someone. Lucky a couple of weeks before our senior year started Ty Ty found a sophomore who was transferring from a small school down south near the beach. Her name was Winter and she needed a place to live for the year. We were so excited to have found someone.

Winter was younger than us but we could not wait to have her move in and get to know her. We knew she was scared of this big change in her life but we knew we could be there for her like her big sisters.

So she moved in and everything was so great well it was for the first couple of days. We could tell Winter missed home from the moment she stepped foot in our door but we tried to make her feel at home.

Then things started to go weird she started going home all the time, even skipped out of rush and went home. She would up things on her Facebook like "I should have stayed home and gone to community college".... and ect.

Here is a little back story on our mansion behind Tut. We have 6 bedrooms but only 5 people can be on the lease because in this old fashion town having 6 people on a lease means we are running a brothel. Since Winter was the last one to verbally agree she was going to live with us she was not on the lease.

So of course our worst nightmares about Winter came true last Thursday. She up and left without a note about where she was going. We finally received a text hours later say that she have withdrew from school and was back at home.


Now, don't get me wrong I know she is not legally bound to pay rent anymore but shouldn't you feel bad about something like this?

Winter is one of those people who only care about themselves and I feel bad for her. She left all of us without a caring what this would do to us. How this would become a financial burden on all of us. She did not even care that she was leaving the one guy who would probably only love her high and dry. Oh, did I mention that she did not even tell her boy toy, a guy she never claimed to to date but she went and celebrated their 2 year only 2 days before she left, that she was going to withdraw from classes and move home.

This sweet boy did the best thing he could do for himself and that was get rid of someone who never even really cared about him.

Like I said I do feel bad for Winter. She is missing out on a great year with some awesome people. We all really did enjoy her company and wanted her to love her time with us. But you can only do so much....

So, this is just a little insight into why I no longer like WINTER....Don't get me wrong I still love cold weather at times, snow, and of course Christmas but Winter will forever be tainted by a girl that only cared about her self. 

Sunday, July 25

The Bulldog...

This is Hank. He is the second love of of my life, other than Tom.
He is in the  middle of a sneeze in this picture and even though he looks goofy I still love this photo.
Hank is a one year old English Bulldog. And even if some think this is stupid I believe that he might be the glue that holds me together when I don't get to talk to Tom. 

 He has such a wonderful personality and gets along with anyone/thing.
My roommate think that he is so VERY spoiled and it is true I would rather spend what money I do have on toys and things for my puppy than things for me. I hope this means that when I become a mommy one day I will spoil my kids in the proper ways and spend money on them rather than me .
Now can you see why I love him so much?
I think this color and photo is so artist. Okay so it probably isn't that artist but it is for me.

This is last one I will add of the Bulldog right now. This is so fascinating to me. It looks like he is smoking but of course he isn't. Crazy don't you think!

Love Letters by Great Men......

Good morning, on July 7
Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours......

This letter
was written by Beethoven to his Immortal love.

I first heard this letter while watching Sex and the City the movie. It got my mind thinking of why love letter aren't still written. Then I realized it is of course because of our dependence on technology. Texting and emails have gotten in the way of written love letters.

Love Letters...

I love getting mail it makes me so excited. I don't even know how to explain the fact that I love to receive mail. I especially love mail from Tom. If you don't already know Tom is in the wood of Montana right now and we rarely get to talk. So letters or as some refer to it snail mail is how we communicate.

So maybe that is why I love letters. Letters are how I get to talk to my love. And I get beyond excited when I receive a letter from Montana. It like Christmas morning when you get to open presents yet this time the present is a little bit of Tom's heart on a piece of paper. A little bit of his heart that I  miss because we are so far away.

 I love reading about how much fun he is having in Montana and it really makes me excited to see that you can really love what you are doing (because I have no idea what I want to do with the rest of my life but knowing that there is something out there that you can love makes me excited to find my passion).

But anyway back to LOVE LETTERS, I want love letters, I need love letters, they keep me going. And the best part is I receive love letters.

Tom's letters always show me how he doing, but they also show me his ever loving heart. These letters I receive every other week are my love letters. His snail mail notes keep me going when I don't think I can do this long distance relationship anymore.

All this brings me to my point of this blog post. Everyone needs some love letters in their life. Okay so maybe guys don't truly treasure love letter like woman but who knows maybe they would enjoy them too. So, I think even if you live in the same house, town, or it actually it really doesn't matter where you are you should write your love, love letters. Don't make these just a quick little note. Write down things you love about that person and things that you miss when they aren't around. Put your heart and soul into that letter or  those letterS.

I believe that Love letter might have been an old fashion tradition but I think is it a tradition that needs to be returned to the 21st century.

Tuesday, July 6

Hello, good bye.....

I cant wait for the time when I don't have say Hi and Goodbye on the phone all the time. This whole long distance thing can take a toll on someone. I know, we both knew when we started this relationship it was going to be a long distance thing but you do what you have to do when you love someone. It all started my freshman year, 5 days before my 20th birthday. I was set up on a blind date (okay so it was really more like a blind formal/ vacation date). Yes, I thought Tom was cute but I wasn't sure if I was ready to date anyone yet, so we took things slow and just started out as friends which has progressed to where we are now. We finally started dating at the end of summer '08 much to Tom's relief I am sure. Our long distance travels then was only 3 hours which at the time I thought was forever and I didn't know how we would make it work, but somehow we did. The drive from Alabama to Auburn got a lot easier with time and most of the time I wish we were still only 3 hours apart. I guess from there Tom keep getting farther and farther away from me. In the summer '09 he was in a completely different world than I was, and by world I mean China.

Then there came graduation time for Tom, Aug '09. I luckily got to see him walk across that stage in Auburn and receive his diploma in building science. After this there came a struggle/ stress in our relationship. With the economy the way it is you can not find a general contractor job anywhere, therefore Tom was left sitting around Auburn with nothing to do. You better believe that was hard to deal with because I was stuck in ttown taking classes and working all the time.

After numerous fights and Tom being bored just sitting around he came back to something he has always wanted to do and that was join the military. Man, after he told me this I was a ball of emotions. Seriously the military? I mean yes it has always been part of my family and more than likely always will be but the military? I knew from that moment on I either had to be all the way in this relationship or all the way out.

I know I said this earlier but the economy is hard so it is surprising really hard to join the military right now and we are still waiting on word to see if Tom has made it to be an officer.

But back to our long distance. My dad gave Tom a job from November to February, which meant Tom was one hour closer to me! Hank and him lived at my house for about 4 months. Crazy, right? Tom choose to live with my family while I wasn't there for months. Man he really either needed the job or loves me that much. I like to think the latter of the two.

Once February '10 rolled around Tom decided he needed to quite wasting time and money down in the south and move back home to Louisville, Kentucky, and he is so lucky I am an amazing girlfriend because for my spring break '10, I helped pack up his house in Auburn and move him home.

Yes this now made my drive 6 hours when I wanted to see him. Six hours is a long time to be in the car by yourself. Its a long way to drive just to see you boyfriend for a weekend ( actually one day since Friday and Sunday are days of driving).

Having him in Louisville wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I actually got to see him 4 times while he was there and it was nice being able to get to know his family better.

But of course Tom found another calling on life. He decided since the military was taking so long and he wouldn't be leaving any sooner than December'10 that he would join the Montana Conservation Corp and work on nature trails. So yes once again in May '10 I helped pack Tom up again for the second time in 2 month. This time it is not possible for me to drive and see him because he is over 30 hours away.

Some say distance makes the hard grow stronger but at times I think it makes my heart weak. When I hear his ring tone go off my heart skips a beat, or when I see a red Jetta pass by I loose my breath thinking it could be him.

You see this is no longer a long distance relationship, this is a long distance pen-palship. Tom is out in the woods 8 to 10 days at a time and out of the woods with cell phone service for 5 days at a time. So basically that adds up to 10 days out of the month I might get to hear his voice and have a conversation with him. But even that time isn't guaranteed because him, his brothers, cousin, and friends like to travel to different places when they are off and therefore he doesn't always have service.

Of course, I get mad when I don't get to talk to him but what am I suppose to do? I am still in school and it wouldn't be fair to make him sit around and wait for me. I don't even know what I want to do in the future or even if there is more schooling in my future.

So as for now I can not wait till I no longer have to say hi and goodbye on a phone an can actually say it in person for the rest of my life!

Wednesday, June 16


IM going to MONTANA!!!

Yes, that is right you did read it correctly! I will going to Montana around the end of summer!! I am super excited not only to see Tom, but also to see a different part of the country. I hear it is beautiful out there. I will be camping and hiking and maybe making a quick trip to dear ole Canada. I also have a couple of surprises up my sleeve for Tommy boy!!

Monday, June 7


I know that life is hard and that its the struggles that make you stronger, but some struggles are so hard that it is hard to see through them.

I know that everyone, no matter how much money they have or how many friends they have each experiences struggles.

This post is for me to get my struggles out so that I can help myself get past them.

Struggle #1:
I know that I deal with long distance everyday but I hate it and I struggle with knowing if he is ever going to be coming back.

Struggle #2:
Trying to relax. I am working almost 40 hours a week and taking classes plus trying to give Hank all the attention he needs.

Struggle #3:
Trying to make myself realize that being broke all the time will one day pay off. I hate sitting at home while everyone is out spending money, or going shopping with people who can spend however much money while I have no money to spend.

Struggle #4:
Knowing that all this schooling and my hard work will pay off with a job or grad school or just something.

Struggle #5:
Only spending 25 dollars on groceries every two weeks. This one sounds stupid but I normally don't even have 25 dollars to spend and always craving something I cant afford, so when I go to the store I have to make myself only buy the essentials.

Struggle #6:
Not being jealous of others for what they have. Right now I am pretty much at the dispense of others because Mrs. J is with my parents. So if I need to go somewhere I have to walk or wait till one of my roommates is going somewhere. I am also always working and everyone is just hanging out so it is hard for to watch them have fun.

Struggle #7:
Not being able to talk/see Tom. Tom is in the woods for 8 days then gets 5 days off and when he is not working he is out exploring Montana. I hate this struggle every moment of everyday but I know that he is happy and that all I want.

more struggles to come......

Friday, May 21

Farm style living

Who knew I lived on a FARM?

Ok, so I don't really live on a farm but it sure feels like it sometimes. I all started when we lived in town, I was in 5th grade when we got the pug, Pugsely. Then for my 13th birthday I got my kitty cat, Zoe. A couple of years later we got Cj, my little sister's Norwegian Forest cat. Then of course a couple of months later brother wanted a dog, so we got O'ryan. Well we all fell in love with O'ryan but found out about a week after we adopted the cute puppy that he had parvo and we unfortunately we had to put him asleep. My twin was devastated by this loss so that Christmas my mom and dad surprised him with a black lab puppy. We named her Dixie and she was one crazy puppy. Within the year that we had her she chewed up numerous shoes and other household items. By the next October, Dixie was giving birth to 10 beautiful puppies. She was a great mother but unfortunately a week after giving birth to her litter she was killed. This death was a shock to the whole family.

We really had no idea how to take care of 10 week old puppies but we somehow cooped and all 10 puppies survived!

Of course after having to take care of all those puppies, we wanted to keep all of them, but we didn't need 10 more animals at our house. Conlyn was allowed to choose one puppy to keep (he choose the large male dog of the whole liter, Boogie) and the rest we gave away. Ok, so that's a lie. We ended up keeping one more of the puppies, Lacey Jo, who was the runt of the litter.

So after now keeping two of the puppies, this brought our total number of animals up to 5. That equaled an animal for each family member.

I bet you think that is all of them, right? Well for a couple of years that was correct, all up until my dad of all people found a stray kitten, who had a deformed paw that we like to call it the elephant huff. We named her Ally because she was found in an ally downtown.

Ally was a wild cat and she showed it. She did not like to be petted or even picked up. She would hiss and spit, something I have never seen before.

So, now with Ally this brought our family total to 5 humans and 6 animals.

That's enough right? Ok, it wasn't enough. You know how some people are hoards of stuff, well my family might be hoards of animals.

As of April we have another new addition to the family. Its the cutest little orange and white male kitten. We refer to him as Big O.

Now we are at 7 animals, and I thought we were done but then I remembered one of the loves of my life that I did not include in this farm list. That love would Hank, Tom and mines English Bulldog. Hank and I are rarely at my parents house but since we are here for a couple of weeks this brings the total to 8.

Yes, 8 animals is crazy and I do seem to live on an animal farm but I would have it no other way.

Wednesday, May 19

November cant get here SOON ENOUGH....



THAT ADDS UP TO 12+30+31+31+30+31+5 = 170 DAYS

170 DAYS TILL TOM COMES HOME FROM montana... I will be counting down the days till I get to see him again so get ready for one BIG blog count down

The story of a young girl stranded on the side of the road.....

In the beginning there was a blond headed, blue-eyed girl who was having car troubles.

For those of you who don't know, I love my car. Its old but not that old and its blue (my favorite color). So, what was wrong with my beloved Mrs. J? Well, the problem was with it's 10 year old radiator. The side tanks that hold your coolant/water mixture were slowly leaking and I was always having to fill them back up. I had known about this problem for months but like any broke college student I kept putting off fixing it.

So last Wednesday night my dad and I decided it was time to fix my radiator. That way I could leave for Louisville, Ky without having to worry about being stuck on the side of the road. We spent all night working on my car and still had to wake up early on Thursday morning so I could leave by 10 o'clock central time. We did it, we finished it and I was able to leave on time. I was so excited and had even started bragging to some of my friends about how I had replaced my radiator without any problems.

11 miles.... that's all Mrs. J made it before I had to pull off the road. Now to defend my mechanic skills I stopped because my dad's car was on the side of the road and I wanted to make sure he did not need my help. Turns out dear ole daddy boy had a WRECK. Ok, so it was a fender binder and was no big deal, however; me having stopped to check on my dad saved Mrs. J's life.

Make note that it is always important to check all plugs when replacing a radiator! Since we had forgotten to check and see if they were all tight and in place, I got stranded on the side of interstate 85 for 2 and a half hours (luckily my dad was stranded right along beside me because his radiator had been cracked in the fender binder). Those all important plugs are what keep your coolant in the tanks and with one of my plugs gone all of my coolant/water mixture came rushing out from under Mrs. J's hood like a waterfall.

So with the culprit of the waterfall understood, we had to wait for my sleeping brother to answer our hundreds of nonstop phone calls so that he could become our knight in shining armor, but finally with him on the way we were saved. Once that stupid plug was put back in its rightful place and all the coolant replaced I was on my way to see my LOVESS!!!

Wednesday, May 12

Laney.. where'd that come from?

Thank you Ms. Bodet for this title, I will for sure miss you this summer as you are off being a "camper". For those of you who do not know, Laney was a nickname given to me by my 5 roommates, yes I did say 5. I live with 5 GIRLS in a castle behind Tutwiler (I'll let your mind wonder on that thought).

Here are a couple of things you need to know:

1. I am a clean freak
2. I am obsessed with my English bulldog, Hank
3. I stress out way to easily
4.I might enjoy hello kitty a little to much
5. Long distance is a part of my everyday life

I do not know what I will use this blog for immediately but I am sure I will come up with some ideas soon!